recently, i involved myself in a dating game... for the first time i found a guy that i really like, he is the one i believe i am looking for. i know that i am choosy, had had relationship in the past but when i met this guy i said to myself that he is the one for me.
believing that the dating is getting more progress, i hope so much. and we both believe at first that relationship is at best when founded in friendship. as time goes by our friendship grew into more intimate one. he used words that made me fall for him more and made me believed him so much. since i am a woman with very open mind, i let him do things what he wanted and figure it out more about his feelings for me....and so he left for two weeks and went to another country.
after 2 weeks we met again.....
and told me in front of my face that he is not in love withme. worst, he is inlove with another woman.
i did everything to make the relationship went smoothly as possible. i was patient to him and act as a real partner in life.
i was inlove with him much... i never gave so much time and atention to a man before in mylife.
yes, there were many issues in his life but i accepted them all.
now, i am recovering from pain. i tried to win him back but i lost him. i lost the battle.
i'm not sure if i will ever find another man like him. it is painful, it cut my heart deeply. i am wounded and i am afraid to love again in the moment.