What If Husband Leaves Me

Im 51 and been married 16 years, no children because he didnt want any. It was always about having fun. He was very proud of my looks and bragged to friends and encouraged me to show my body off. It was a game for us I guess. We would go somewhere and just see how many men would drole over me. I willingly allowed him to show other men pictures of me naked and then had to face them and their wives knowing what we had done. Now I know he just used me like a toy. He doesnt pay me any attention now but stares at young women right in front of me. He doenst brag on my looks or tell me Im beautiful.

I know Im not beautiful anymore and Im afraid he is going to leave me for another younger woman because looks are all he cares about. I have tried so hard to look good but im just getting tired and im losing the fight. I still feel young but when I look in the mirror a fat wrinkled old woman is standing there and it just cant be me. Im just falling apart body and mind.