Scared of Getting Pregnant
I'm really scared of getting pregnant, me & my partner both want kids, I'm 28 now and have kept on putting it off each year cuz i am really scared. I want 2 kids of my own. My dad died unexpectedly nearly 4 years ago, whom I was close to. Since then I have suffered panic attacks, I cant watch anything to do with hospitals, I have to avoid blood, arguements, feeling sick and any kind of pain can trigger an attack. I'm not so bad now as I try to avoid everything. What really scares me about the pregnancy is the feeling and being sick, having blood testst cuz I nearly pass out, trouble breathing if I have a panic attack and then worst of all the labour, i cant see myself coping with it at all. I used to be happy and normal, things like this would never get to me, but I am the total opposite now which really hurts me.
Does anyone recommend anything, apart from just getting on with it???