I am about 9 weeks pregnant and am completely and utterly terrified! I have no kids right now, so this is my first pregnancy. Before I found out I was pregnant, I thought I wanted a child and could handle anything a pregnancy might bring. But now that I really am pregnant, I am so scared, that I even cry all the time about it. I'm terrified about the actual 9 months of pregnancy and then the actual birth, too. Every time I even think about delivery, I cringe at the thought of the pain and contractions and dilation. My bf is a little scared, but he's completely excited for the most part. I on the other hand, am a mess. I have talked to him about it several times, but it almost seems pointless, because I don't think a man could ever Really understand what women actually go through mentally, physically and emotionally. I just know adoption is out of the question for me, n I'm the only one I want to raise my child. And I've considered abortion, but my bf really wants to have it. I understand even though it's in MY BODY, it took the two of us to make it, so I want to keep this between us two, but he is 100% wanting n ready to have a child. And I understand why, he's 29 and has no children, but I am 24. And I can't help but wish I had waited a little longer to get pregnant. But then again, it's not something I had planned, it just sort of happened. Even though I have talked to my bf about how I feel endless times, I can't help but feel alone in this. My mother is not supportive at all. She doesnt like my bf and doesnt want me to be with him. She thinks I need to have an abortion. But my bf's mom n family is excited and wants to be suportive(even thou she doesn't know how to be) I can't help but feel stuck in this. I feel like no matter what I decide, someone will get hurt. But I know nobody can make any decision for me, it's something I have to do myself n with my bf, who is the father btw. I just pray that I eventually come around. But most of all, I pray that my child is perfect and healthy, because that's the MOST important thing to me..