I'm not pregnant right now, but my husband really wants us to have a baby. I just turned 36 and am finally beginning to feel that maternal itch that makes me think about what it would be like to have a child almost every day. I am going for a full fertility screening in a few weeks to make sure that everything is in order.
How do all you mommies out there get over the anxieties about carrying, birthing and raising a child? It's seems like such an awesome responsibility. Sometimes the thought terrifies me. I worry that I won't be healthy enough during gestation - I've had hormonal imbalances that have caused me to have depression before. What if I become depressed while with child? Can you take antidepressants? Also, will labor be as horrible as I think it will? Then are the first few weeks awesome or really diffucult? The baby is so tiny and totally dependent.
But, I often look with envy at families with babies and children. I imagine that Christmas is really fun. All of those milestones (first words, first steps, etc.) must be really gratifying. Also, I'm tired of thinking only of myself all the time. It might be relieving to have someone else to worry about and care for.
Anyway, as you can see, I'm still a bit on the fence, but really want to dive in and go for it. I've just got some fears and concerns. I guess that's normal...right?