Losing My Mind, Lost In Love.

I am so scared of losing any kind of love I get.

My family doesn't really get along and most definately never shows love. Their biggest idea of "love" is screaming and yelling until you eventually change all the things they want you to.

Me and my boyfriend have been together 2 years in October. I've grown so insecure over the years and I've never experienced a love like this before. I just get so paranoid, have dreams about him leaving me. Finding someone "better". I dont know what I would do without him, I dont even remember what it was like when we weren't together... 

And then when he doesn't pay as much attention to me as I would like, I just feel.. kinda empty. Like he doesn't even like me at all..

L0vetheway L0vetheway
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 3, 2009

I know how you feel, I can sympathize and wish you well. I have known heart ache and pain of loss. Struggling to make a failing relationship work begging and pleading. Feeling the loss and pain of it is unbearable. I hope you do not feel this way, *sends you energy to make your future bend your way a bit more*.