My Heart Is Breaking

After all these years you would think a person could get used to losing people they love, but not me.  My heart is breaking and I don't know if I can stand it this time.  My sister is dying and there is nothing any of us can do but stand by and watch.  It's so unfair.  You see, in her case, she is the most loving, caring, considerate person I have ever known.  She is my sister-in-law but she has always been my sister.  We met when we were just 16 and Giggles is my best friend in all the world.  She is the one who has always insisted that we never  give in, never give up, always have hope, and now she is giving up.  I spent this weekend watching that beautiful lady suffer in such pain.... pain no one should ever have to endure. 

This little woman looks at you with eyes of compassion and love.  She is the first one to come to your side and hold you up when you're down and don't think you can make it.  She is selfless and loves unconditionally.  To see that smile and hear her infectious giggle will brighten even the saddest day.  Now her hours are filled with the struggle to just survive one more day and I don't understand.  I don't want to lose her and it scares me.  I really love her..... everyone who knows her loves her. 
Brooklynchick Brooklynchick
51-55, F
5 Responses Jul 5, 2010

**tears** I do love you all so much. ((hugs))

No, we never get used to it Miss Brook. Those who can sit back and say "it's natural, don't be sad" have no heart and are stone cold walking dead. We love her and no one wants to see her suffer. My candles are always lit for her and my prayers are said day and night. ((hugs))

Lol, I'd like to see you try and whip my butt :) Ok, nothing but smiles cause I know you are doing so much better and I'm ecstatic about it. Steve and I love you Little Bit, and you gotta stick around. Who will I raise hell with if you aren't here??? lol ((hugs))

Aaaw, Brook, I didn't see this when you wrote it. You have been like my twin (ok, I don't know how to swear in Italian but other than that ... twins!) . I love you very much and you're right, I would spank you if I caught you crying...SMILE DAMMIT!! I'm doing better since you posted this and you and Miss AE have been wonderful lighting candles and praying for me. It's workingggggg :) Now no more sad faces, smile for me? Mwah!

I know, it's hard to take when it's someone as sweet as Giggles. She's never harmed anyone and always just wants to help. You know, if she catches us crying she will spank us both so we better put a smile on :) ((hugs)) G.