Selfish?I more than just fear the thought of losing the few people I have close to me. After already losing some close friends, I can’t grasp losing anymore. I have fear instilled in me from my unstable relationships with my friends and parents.
Because I am so scared of losing the people I really love; I find I just push people away and make sure I don’t “get attached” so I won’t have to feel the anxiety and pain of a loss. I’d rather pretend I didn’t care, so it seems like it hurts less, when it really just make its worse. I wish I didn’t have this constant thought of not getting close to anyone so I won’t get hurt in the end. I’m sure this is a selfish?