I more than just fear the thought of losing the few people I have close to me. After already losing some close friends, I can’t grasp losing anymore. I have fear instilled in me from my unstable relationships with my friends and parents.

Because I am so scared of losing the people I really love; I find I just push people away and make sure I don’t “get attached” so I won’t have to feel the anxiety and pain of a loss. I’d rather pretend I didn’t care, so it seems like it hurts less, when it really just make its worse. I wish I didn’t have this constant thought of not getting close to anyone so I won’t get hurt in the end. I’m sure this is a selfish?
trixii9siobhan trixii9siobhan
18-21, F
1 Response Feb 3, 2012

It is. But you're allowed.<br />
Problem, though, is that it's a one-way street to a dead end, alone. It is worth the risk of reaching out again, really. <br />
Be safe, but don't be alone. Wishing you a peaceful heart ...