It never will be acceptable. I can't even imagine losing her. I feel like I would die with her. A big part of me would. It would only be my other children and grandchildren that would keep me breathing. My daughter and I have always been connected in every sense of the word from the beginning of her life. What she feels, I feel. What I feel, she feels. As my daughter suffers with her cancer, I can't make everything OK for her anymore. I would do anything, anything, including die for her. And yet, even as her Mom, I can't take the pain away from her and have it as my own.