Not Really Scared As Much As Untrusting
I get very scared of the thought of being hurt and whenever i get in a relationship i get paranoid and just wait to get screwed over i guess my biggest problem is i get in these moods where i think love is a hunk of roman tic b.s. idk that and im impatient .... i know how i feel about Jake and i want it to hurry up and i hope i havent messed ^God's Plan , with the whole chris thing from this past weekend ( read my blog for information ) i find it hard to trust anyone so why do i want a long distance relationship ??? go figure i think everything about me is almost a contradiction i dont know i get so confused on what i want .