Hallucinations And Paranoia

I'm scared to close my eyes in the shower in fear that a spider will jump on my and kill me. Whenever something moves in front of my face, I think it's a spider and I cringe, and cry, and sweat. I think the scariest part is when you don't know and a spider just lowers itself down onto your head and bites you. I heard that all spiders are poisonous, so that's why I'm so scared that I'm going to die or get a scary wound. Spiders look so evil all the time and I'm most scared of black widows because they have hunormous butts and brown recluse. I live in California, so I think there's a lot of those spiders. My granny keeps opening the doors, so all the spiders come in. I'm scared to go to the bathroom alone because I'm scared a spider is going to be there. I'm scared to go outside. I put lemon juice all over my body so the spiders won't want to come near me.