I Am Scared Of The Path I Have Chosen
Life comes with choices, the choice to do nothing is still a choice.
We should make decisions based on truth, love and survival. Though often they are based on fears, anxieties, greed and pain.
Do you believe in predestination? that we are born with a purpose, maybe just some of us are. And the rest of us are hopelessly trying to navigate ourselves in a chaotic world. To find meaning in a meaningless life. Are we to fulfil our hearts desires, gain some prize or possession that will make our souls feel satisfied, for what end? To lie in the grave with a smile on our face.
If we are chemicals and chemicals in our brain can tell us if we are happy or not, why can we not fix it so that we are in a permanent state of happiness, instead it seems like we an innate part of us which says "is this it?" Or is the truth that the struggle is what makes us and if so we're we born to struggle and will anything come of that, I guess it then depends if you believe in an afterlife. From where I'm standing, it all looks pretty bleak. To be born to die, to live to breed, to live to laugh. It all seems too fleeting, a ******, a mocking from a God who watches the show from a safe standing distance.
I don't believe I'm on a path so far, if I was on a path it would suggest a destination. I'm not sure what will fulfil me or make me gain the all wanting 'happiness' factor. Pigs in a pen I guess are happy until they are slaughtered. I can't shake the feeling that something big is going to happen, big things have happened to me before, terrific and terrifying things, life changing things. I can't help feeling, I'm not here for the party, I'm here for the fight.
We should make decisions ba
Do you believe in predestination? that we are born with a purpose, maybe just some of us are. And the rest of us are hopelessly trying to navigate ourselves in a chaotic world. To find meaning in a meaningless life. Are we to fulfil our hearts desires, gain some prize or possession that will make our souls feel satisfied, for what end? To lie in the grave with a smile on our face.
If we are chemicals and chemicals in our brain can tell us if we are happy or not, why can we not fix it so that we are in a permanent state of happiness, instead it seems like we an innate part of us which says "is this it?" Or is the truth that the struggle is what makes us and if so we're we born to struggle and will anything come of that, I guess it then depends if you believe in an afterlife. From where I'm standing, it all looks pretty bleak. To be born to die, to live to breed, to live to laugh. It all seems too fleeting, a ******, a mocking from a God who watches the show from a safe standing distance.
I don't believe I'm on a path so far, if I was on a path it would suggest a destination. I'm not sure what will fulfil me or make me gain the all wanting 'happiness' factor. Pigs in a pen I guess are happy until they are slaughtered. I can't shake the feeling that something big is going to happen, big things have happened to me before, terrific and terrifying things, life changing things. I can't help feeling, I'm not here for the party, I'm here for the fight.
Age:
22-25
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Female
