this time next year it will be exactly 3 weeks until i turn 30. the big 3-0. thirty. really. i don't look like it thank goodness, but still. when you tell people you're 30 it's like they expect certain things from you. when you're in you're 20s everything is cool b/c you're experimenting, trying new things, taking risks, etc. but at 30...it's like you have to be an adult now....be getting settled into a career, relationship, family life, etc. At 30, people expect you to know what you want to do with your life, have a goal at least or something. i really don't. i'm kind of sad about that. i have....nothing basicially. nothing that i've accomplished thus far in my life. i have a daughter, but she wasn't planned and i'm not with her father anymore, so that's really not helpful.
i'm probably going to spend my entire 29th year of life being depressed about turning 30. i hope not, but...it's not looking good so far.