Yes I Admit It

..I am afraid of what people think of me. Always have been. What if they don't like me, what if they say I'm weird again, or what if they're just pretending.

I'm very sensitive, easily hurt and upset about little things. I have very little self confidence and I feel awkward around people.

I think that all of my awkwardness and maybe also shyness can be traced to just having a deep-seated fear of rejection. That's why I don't really get along with new people, just because I'd rather say very little than to show a little bit of who I am and get rejected. But I do want to stand for what I believe. Not be ruled by fear - once I get inside my head and start thinking too much, fear takes over and I'll slam shut.

I really wish I had more confidence..

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1 Response Feb 12, 2010

Right now you are just following Abraham Lincoln's advice, "It is better to keep quiet and let people think that you are a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt"<br />
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I was like you for all of my early college years.. I was a quiet, shy student and the end result was a 2.41 GPA.and I was told that I was too dumb for graduate school.<br />
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But a few months later I was taking another undergraduate course that started out with the teacher saying that he welcomed students that would challenge anything that he said.<br />
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Oh, surer thought everyone else in the class ,.. good way to guarantee a D or C at best..<br />
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WELL, thought I, maybe this might work.. I knew the subjects, I just never acted like I did.<br />
The next day the teacher delved into some controversial topic that I was very familiar with, and he took the weaker position. Now or Never, I thought.<br />
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So I bit the bullet and took on the college teacher. The rest of the class thought that the dummy <br />
(me) would flunk this class.<br />
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But I logically stated my position and proved that the teacher's position was illogical and he finally admitted that t I was right.. I got the first A of my college career!<br />
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WOWIE!!! Showed me how dumb I was in being shy and how smart i looked when i became a logical contender. After that class, I always took the front seat in the classroom and no more MR. shy guy for me. My Master degree ended with a 3.5 GPA and my PhD with a 3.82 GPA<br />
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I am still really have the same level of intelligence; I just gave up being Mr. Shy Guy Image is all.. <br />
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If I can do it, you can do it too! Think Positive and the world can be yours.<br />
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P.S. At an alumni dinner a few years ago, I was asked to introduce this teacher by my classmates. I introduced him as the outstanding teacher that made the most difference in my life.