Scared And Lost

I just got told I tested Positive. I am so scared right now. I have no clear words to express how I feel. I feel hurt, angry, scared, confused, and sad. I am marrried and have children. They are all I think about. I have to take another test to confirm results. So many thoughts racing through my mind. I have that perm feeling of butterflies in my stomach. I keep thinking if its true, how long do I have. I want to walk my kids down the aisle...I have never been so scared....this hurts so much
dawiseguy23 dawiseguy23
31-35, M
3 Responses Dec 3, 2012

I know the feeling, I have travelled the same road. I had all my tests and window period before making a baby. But a 7days before the baby came on my birthday I voluntered to encourage other young people by testing. Guess who was posistive? Me yes I was. It was 4yrs ago but I can still feel the hot flashes I had. But believe me I survived and still hanging on. I am living a posistive life and doing the best that I can with what i have. Hang in there it will all work out just fine. Be blessed

Hiv

Positive for what?