Lonely By Myself

I have self-diagnosed myself with schizoid personality disoreder. Individuals can be diagnosed with this disorder by just meeting four of the requirements, but I meet 6/7 of them. I feel sooooo lonely, I try to socialize, but I lack the skills. People ALWAYS exclude me from events. I have NO FRIENDS besides my sister. I’m so frustrated and tire of this. I don’t know what to do. As I’m writing this, I’m crying. How silly of me. No body at work invites me to events, but they seem to invite everyone else. People don’t even care on what I think about specific topics/problems/solutions at work. I feel so lonely. I’m 27 and I’ve never had a close friend besides my sister. I’m quiet for the most part. Everyone thinks that not wanting to talk and socialize is just part of who I am or that I don’t want to socialize with others, but this is soooo wrong. I need support. I’m so frustrated and tired of what I’m going through and being alone.
HistoricDisorder2012 HistoricDisorder2012
26-30
1 Response Dec 13, 2012

I may be wrong, but I think you're not schizoid. The reason would be that you seem to genuinely want social interaction, friends, and all that stuff, but are having trouble with it.
Then again, everyone experiences their SPD differently, so who knows. The difference I see between you and myself (although I'm self diagnosed too), is that my main problem is the exhaustion I feel every time I have to interact with other human beings. I need to act like the sociable young lady who's perfectly happy with her life, in order to stop people from butting in to try and fix my problems.. Even though I'm not perfect, not happy, far from sociable, and even less of a lady.

This might seem strange coming from someone who's also self-diagnosed, but maybe in your case it wouldn't be a bad idea to see a therapist? Based on the fact that you seem very willing to fix your problems, as opposed to my thinking that I'm just doomed to be like this forever.