Am In Pain But Appear Calm

I am not in pain that shows physically or anything unless you really know me well. I look to most calm but I am not really. I have caused too much pain to myself by doing what I knew might be painful to all along but I had to still. I am going to be in more pain most likely the longer I put off searching for the rest of my family.
kthimm1 kthimm1
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 21, 2009

it is very sad and very hard to take i know!

Its worse everyday.<br />
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I want it to stop or I will probably go back to my old way to handle pain which then people would see I started cutting again

i know what you mean, i could scream my head off inside but somehow i hold it all together no one would ever guess what i am truley feeling, i wish i could scream and shout my head off