How Easy

There are really only 2 people who can tell whats wrong with me no matter how hard my mask is on. My mate and my daughter. Its so easy to hide what's really going on and there is something wrong very often. I tend to think too much which tends to make my chest hurt. I sulk inside of myself and hold it there to hopefully put on paper at a later doesn't always work like that though. I want to pull my hair out sometimes but I look as calm as wolf about to take down her prey. I can't stand it sometimes. I'm screaming inside my head but no one sees it...I just want to stop thinking about it..about anything..

HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu
26-30, F
4 Responses Feb 24, 2009

True yes. The thing is I am not good at thinking about something else when I need to.

It's not really a matter of thinking about something in particular its just thinking too much on anything.

I tend to do the same thing lately. Think about what will just hurt me more than I already am hurt. I am in pain in many ways from all I have found out recently. <br />
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I can't look myself in the mirror without a reminder of what I now know.

thinking about what?