Constantly Getting Lost
I became a Christian 4 years ago when I was 23. Ever since, it has been such a struggle. I long to nestle in God. I long to understand what Jesus did. But I am numb. I feel so little sometimes. I often think of suicide - a way to leave this world. I don't want to think this way because I know in my brain that God is good, and he has a reason to keep me in this world. I don't feel good about being a Christian, but in my heart I know that it is true. I wish that I could be a better ambassador for God.