Constantly Getting Lost

I became a Christian 4 years ago when I was 23. Ever since, it has been such a struggle. I long to nestle in God. I long to understand what Jesus did. But I am numb. I feel so little sometimes. I often think of suicide - a way to leave this world. I don't want to think this way because I know in my brain that God is good, and he has a reason to keep me in this world. I don't feel good about being a Christian, but in my heart I know that it is true. I wish that I could be a better ambassador for God.
LostTraveller LostTraveller 26-30, F 17 Responses May 9, 2007

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Check out her site---Dr Mary Neal, "To Heaven and Back". Read about "The Miracle of Fatima" and "Our lady of Guadalupe". Google in Muslims see Jesus. As for suicide ---life is to live, not fear living it, you never take the life anyone or your own. People that commit suicide never realize how many people they kill too. ----not physically killing another but how many people stop living and become empty and void. Like a train engineer that had someone throw themselves in front of his train--he could not stop, it was not his fault but his life ended that day too, his wife told the story of how her husband was never the same. Or the person that drove his car so fast to crash, not realizing when the wheel got ripped off the car it bounced so hard and fast it hit an innocent person --and actually killed that person and destroyed a family that would never know their father. Good people do good things----smile and say Hello to people---make someone feel valued.

Let me tell you something. I'm related to Jesus Christ and no one in this huge family even believes in G-d. You are suffering from neglect. You're wasting your time believing in G-d. G-d doesn't exist. You are believing in nothingness and evil itself. You are feeling negative. What you need to do is let those negative emotions flow through you. Just be a negative person. G-d will ruin your life. Take some time off. F*** G-d. You're the only one who matters.

With love,

God has so many great things in store for you in your life. Keep the faith and keep seeking him. When you asked God into your life 4 years ago....he came in and will be with you forever and ever. When you get down, cry out to God and ask him to give you strength. Philippians 4:13
Always remember God loves you. Always put him 1st in everything you do and he will take care of the rest!
God Bless you

Ok well first of all you dont have to be a christian or any religion at all to find God. He can only be found inside you through prayer and deep meditation. I suggest learning the techniques or Kriya Yoga. Also you dont want to commit suicide because you will only have to go through all of the tests that this life has presented to you currently in your next life. Your karma will bring you back to everything you have faced throughout this life. Its basically like starting over. And the things that Jesus did were no "miracles", because those dont exist. He simply understood cosmic laws that most of us are unaware of but we also have this power to produce. When he turned water into wine for instance, he was only using the law transmutation to turn the light particles of water into light particles of wine. When he fed everyone with couple fish and bread, he used the law of multiplication to create the multitudes to food. There are many invisible laws, unknown to current science that permit us, as sons of God, to do just about anything. When Jesus walked on water everyone thought it was a miracle, but in fact its just simple law. EVERYONE has the power to Create!! There have been countless others that have produced these kinds of "miracles". What Jesus' real mission on Earth was, was to bring the sword of peace to fight against the fears and the doubts that have been a mask to the people of earth, and to bring people to an understanding that we are all sons of the one true God and with faith and love we can all take dominion over the Earth.

I hope I am not to late. Please check out this website If you want to know God Admistration in accordance with Christ please check out the website and contact me. Please don't commit suicide.

I was once lost and God found me. I was in despair and while I was telling God everything that was going on, HE spoke, and said, "Do you love me" and I said yes Lord I love you and HE asked again do you love me and I answered yes Lord you know I love you and again HE asked Do you love me and I said Lord you know I love you and I will do anything for you. Then he gave me instructions on what he wanted me to do. He said that I was to fast for 30 days until noon only because I had never fasted and then he said that I should pray in the morning at noon and in the afternoon and if he were to call me in the middle of the night I was to get up and talk to him and HE did. That was the beginning of my supernatural live with God.

Hello Lost Traveller. You are on the right track in searching for God as a christian..You are right that God is good..remember, that God created you to worship and acknowledge him. Your life is important, as you use it to worship him in truth. Killing yourself is a grave sin and is not a way out...because when the day of judgement comes you want to be on the side of salvation. Experiencing trials and frustrations is normal, as God says" we are born to trouble...." It not too late Losttraveller..But you have to seek him in an entire different way: finding the true Church built by christ to be saved and to find peace for your soul...What can you lose here? Nothing. But alot to gain. If you need more info, dont hesitate to let me know. Im here for you.

If you are getting lost all the time use a GPS (God's personal steadier.)

None of us seekers have found perfection otherwise we wouldn't still be seekers, would we? So, your seach goes on, some days on the path, some days, not so good.




And just be.

Stop looking outside of yourself for god.

You will never find him that way.

Look inside yourself To your highest expression, wish or thought of yourself.

God is there...always has been and always will be.

Many people search for God somewhere out there. They think God is somewhere else unseen. They spend so much time searching for other people to teach them or encourage them on their search. They hop from religion to religion or get stuck in one religion believing they are not "Christian" enough or do not understand scriptures enough. God is not out there away from where you are. God is omnipresent. That means God is everywhere, in every cell, in every atom. God is not confined to time and space. When something is not confined to space, that means you do not have to search outside yourself to find it. This mean God is right where you are. All paths lead back to you. Understand your own divinity and your own connection to the omnipresence...which is within and throughout all things.

Hi LostTraveler!

I think to find God and not to get lost, we need to open our mind and ask Him to show us the straight way, like in the verse below:

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

1. Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the worlds;

2. Most Gracious, Most Merciful;

3. Master of the Day of Judgment.

4. Thee do we worship, and Thine aid we seek.

5. Show us the straight way,

6. The way of those on whom Thou hast bestowed Thy Grace,

7 those whose (portion) is not wrath, and who go not astray.

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

1. Say: He is Allah, the One and Only;

2. Allah, the Eternal, Absolute;

3. He begetteth not, nor is He begotten;

4. And there is none like unto Him.

I have struggled a lot with my faith. I am not a new Christian, but an "old" one. What I have learned is that we must walk by faith and not by feeling. That sometimes we can really feel that we are in enemy occupied territory, and it is dark all around us. I believe that those are "trying" times, and I have failed the test often enough. But I am still going through it. I still have a lot to learn, and sooner or later I will get it. I do believe that God is truth. I believe He will show the way to people who really do seek to know the truth. You have to hang on and ride it through. Suicide is not an option we are given. Maybe it has something to do with being salt and light, but I'm never sure. All I know is that you cannot see what is ahead. You and I see into that mirror darkly, and just have to hold on and trust. That's all I have, other than to let you know that I feel for you, and I've been there. But if you believe, then you must run the race set out for you, whatever that means. Maybe just knowing that can give you some peace. Maybe we should just lean a little and rest in knowing that Someone else is in control.

Anyway, when I need comfort and am having a problem getting my brain around some of the details, I read a book by C. S. Lewis called Mere Christianity. It makes a lot of sense, and having the logistics of Christianity can be a comfort to me when my feelings don't want to line up with what my heart really knows. All my very best to you. I hope you find comfort.

i was there just a few months ago i fell into a deep depression (and no it wasnt physical bcuz i am 100% over it it was spiritual)

i almost fel into cutting and thoughts of suicide

and the origins of my grief was

im not good enough for God

im not really a christian

im not really saved

but i now learned (and i feel a great peace w/ god now)

that that was Satan using my thought agains me they were lies to make me an ineffedtive christin to make me giv up

the devi came to steal to kill and destroy

but Satan doesnt have any power over us if u use ur authority in Christ

Read Ephesians 6

We need to put ont he armour of God

when we begin to fall away from God just a lil bit Satan take sadvantage

'we are in a constant spiritual battle

and look even in ur searching back to God

Satan distorts the truth of Jesus suggesting u could find peace besides Jesus

Jesus is God the father and the son are One

it impossible to "believ ein God but no tin jesus"

in thast case we would b beliving in :sumthing" in a made up God accoring to our wishes and ideas (no offence to anyone) but i kno how it goes because i used to be agnostic b4 i was christian

hold on to God

cry out to him

tell him EVERYTHING ur feeling

strait out

cry scream yell slam a wall

but cry out to Jesus

he will point u to the truth

he sure did to me

u just need to belive in him

he never left u

he still loves u


think of this

BEFORE u were born b4 any of us were born

God looked at all the sin in the wrld every person created and that will in the future b created and said

Yes, i will pay fro their sin

there is nothing u can do to seperate urself fromt he love of God

nothing except give up

hes always there waiting to pick u back up

b strong and cry out to Jesus

feel free to email me at

God Bless

Hello .

I just watched a really good movie which talks about Zen, living in the moment. Not worried about the past or present. It also talks about who are you when you can not do the thing you love. And they talk about a whole lot of other hard questions while seeing 2 guys relate out of respect for each other.

One guy is a gymnast, and the other guy, "Socrates", does what he wants when he wants. Socarates is the guy giving the advice. He does not seem like much, but he can move mountains with his philosophy.

This movie came at a time when I had many questions. It turns out sometimes I already do what Socrates says, and sometimes I act like the Kid/20 year old.

It is a very DEEP movie. I would highly recommend it for those of us who are lost

Hi lost traveller. Having a faith can be great. I have a faith although it isn't along the lines of born again christianity.

However I think you are using your religion to beat yourself up. Depression is a condition - you are probably going to be depressed regardless of whether you practice as a christian or not. Having a mental health condition is not a weakness of faith.

Despite the fervour of pentecostal meetings, and the experiences of Jesus healing the sick the reality is that christianity doesn't have a good track record for healing people. There are millions of god loving christians on the planet who live with disease and disability and it is not reflection on their faith.

I think that living creatively with disease and disability is by far the hardest thing to do but you can call on your faith to help you do this better. Maybe you just need to ajust the goal posts a bit.

I hope I havern't offended you by my comments


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I have been also been looking for God for years. I know that he exists because I can see that everything from the simplest atom to the most complex life had to have been designed. I started out as a Christian but like most religions they want you to forget about real issues you may have and "believe with your heart". That is where the trouble starts. You need to believe with your mind too, it has to make sense or how can you keep peace between your heart and mind? I have not found a religion that has not been distorted over time. If you are looking to belong to a religion I hope that you will just be aware and do some research. You will find some truth and some errors. What I can know so far is that God is real, the proof is overwhelming. He does love us. We are here for a purpose. I will always be looking for him and like you some day I will find him. Stay honest to yourself.

Hi LostTraveller, My heart and prayers go out to you, I know exactly how you feel. I struggled for many years after becoming a christian. I understand the desire you feel to what to nestle up in God's arms. Sometimes we think we just can't get anything right in serving Our Heavenly Father. Don't feel as if you're all alone, I promise there are thousands of Christians who feel inadequate in serving the Lord. God tells us in Matt. 5 vs.8 Happy are those whose hearts are pure, for they shall see God. God knows your heart and sees the desire you have to serve HIM. So just believe this scripture and hold on to it in your heart... God knows our every thought even before we think it, He said He would never leave us nor forsake us. Stay focused on Jesus in you're midnight hour and He will deliver you.