Searching For Answers
I've been searching for answers to my questions for more than 25 years. I recall as a young teen, asking a priest some questions about God and suffering. He said that with faith one does not a feel a need to ask questions. Well, my faith only grew weaker that day and I've considered myself an agnostic for most of my adult life.
I was raised Catholic but my family practiced their faith only on special ocassions, so I never really believed completely. I've searched for answers in the Bible, as well other books of faith and theology but I've often come away with more questions. I know some of my questions are the same that have been asked since the beginning of civilization. Does God really exist? What is the purpose of life? Why is there so much suffering in the world? Is there really a heaven? An afterlife? (Please readers, do not attempt to answer my questions, as there are no simple answers and I don't wish to debate these issues here).
Perhaps there's some truth to the notion that if there is a God, he (or she) exists in all of us and that rather than looking to organized religion for answers we need to search within. That's why I find some comfort in meditation and contemplation. I believe in the power of positive thinking, being kind to humans and animals, and giving of oneself. I believe, too, that if there's a God or a higher power, we can not fully understand, as it is beyond our human comprehension. Over the centuries mankind has neatly packaged this concept of God to control others, to define life, or to offer some hope of an afterlife. That's why I'm not a fan of organized religion, though I appreciate the sense of community and support that it provides for many.
I'm impressed by people of strong faith and I've often felt that I want to believe, but I can't but help but feel that choosing to believe this way or that way would be like closing my mind to all the other possibilities out there. Perhaps, as some believe, all roads lead to the same way and it matters not what path we take, so long as we journey with happiness and faith.