Searching For Answers - But Am I Asking The Right Questions?

I have found this website by a pure chance of my usual entering of random words for self-diagnosis and somehow ended up reading about Borderline Personality Disorder. I don't know if this is me but it seems to have struck many chords within me. Makes me happy and sad at the same time but above all I feel it's so unfair that my whole life has been blighted by me feeling empty, not knowing what I really want, taking other people's opinions for my own, hiding behind other people just not to draw attention to the fact that I know nothing, stand for nothing. Is it confidence thing? Well, if it is, that's long gone for I seem to struggle with pretty much everything in my life. Have been off work for a few weeks now - got really bad over Christmas - and should be going back next week. I can't believe it got to this stage. I just want to get out of my head and get on with my life or what's left of it but keep finding myself drilling deeper and deeper as if I was just about to find the answers to my questions - but have not yet.

BTW - feel free to add me (or whatever this site does) if any of the above relates to you, even if not and will be nice to chat about it with someone
BlueSakura BlueSakura
26-30, M
1 Response Jan 15, 2013

I personally am constantly searching the internet for diagnoses on my different ailments - psychological as well as physical. But finding a scientific diagnosis has never really helped me solve the problems that prompted me to do the internet search in the first place.

I guess I don't have any answers but if it makes you feel better.. you're not the only one searching.