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I Am Secretly Depressed

My Secret Depression

By: AngelofDarknessandDepression
Written on September 30th, 2007
Hi...i'm secretly depressed it's like whenever i'm around my friends i plaster on an act but when they aren't around i brake down and cry and at home i sit in my room and listen to songs like bother by stone sour or Ohio is for lovers by Hathorne Heights. Sometimes i think either my family or my friends know but don't say anything. I wonder if it's just better to hide it or show it
By: AngelofDarknessandDepression
Age: 16-18 , Female
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7 responses
  • Shinnyuu
    Shinnyuu

    one more thing its also really nice to, once uve written alot in your diary to go back when ur not in such a depressive mood and reread something you wrote when ur were upset...it will help put things into perspective

    Nov 17, 2008
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  • Shinnyuu
    Shinnyuu

    I have to disagree about the burning diaries thing...writing about ur feelings can be a great outlet its even better if you post things on site liek this that way you know people are hearing what you have to say

    i consider myself somewhat ofa poet

    but i find im only good at writing when im unhappy about something lol

    its sublimation ...turning somethin negative into a peice of art or writing ...what evers upseting you find a way to let it out...coming here was a good 1st step

    Nov 17, 2008
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  • waitingsilently
    waitingsilently

    i do exactly what you do and my family thinks that i am actually happy but act depressed at home to get attention

    they dont believe or understand what is going on inside of me, and i guess i cant expect them to because i dont even understand it myself

    but the second i stop being distracted by what other people have to say, and im home, i just start to cry and its like i was never happy

    Oct 19, 2008
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  • shawonda
    shawonda

    I agree with tomolan's suggestions. But I have to say that if you don't start standing up for yourself and not letting people bully you into things you don't want to do, it will make life harder for you. It doesn't get easier as you get older. A lot of people just like to go with the flow. But the best thing about being a grown up is you are responsible for yourself...you don't have to be friends with anyone you don't want to be. So don't be. Don't hang out with people you don't want to. It sounds simple but it really can be just that simple.

    Jul 19, 2008
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  • emilya86
    emilya86

    just talk to someone.it really works:)I feel like you but I have nobody to talk to.if you had somebody go and talk.share whatever you want...

    Jul 17, 2008
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  • emilya86
    emilya86

    just talk to someone.it really works:)I feel like you but I have nobody to talk to.if you had somebody go and talk.share whatever you want...

    Jul 17, 2008
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  • sam0x
    sam0x

    This is exactly what I would have written if I was talking about myself :(

    I don't know if I should act on it, or just leave it :(

    Nov 18, 2007
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