It Has Similar Moments...

my sis is not a very smart student...she's a slow learner...unlike me...and that just drives my parents mad...she's not stupid...but she's very lazy...and that is the difference...i was an average student with talents...but i damn well was attracted to all things labled evil...it just fascinated the hell out of me...i thought evil was always losing and that wasn't fair at all...so i hated being good...but now...it's gone...when i look back...my mum locked me out of the house...when she couldn't stand my sarcasasm or rudeness...i was very talkative then...either that or i had a sound shelling from either mum or mum and dad when i went out with mum...i don't wanna describe dad....that left me bitter and full of hate...the outcome: i don't trust my parents...i lie to my parents...i manipulate them without crossing my moral boundaries...i don't love my dad...although i do appreciate the little things he does...i keep my distance from mum...i'm scared to be intimate with mum...i fell in love with a gal...that was never expected...

now mum is doing the same thing to sis...often she calls my sis a cow or a donkey...my sister has experienced both of my parents beating and scolding her...mum yells at her everyday for being so lazy...ridicules her...it has not accelerated to chasing her out of the house but i have no intention on letting that happen...i don't want her to make the same mistakes i did...i didn't have anybody...no friends...i want to make sure i'm there for her...mak that difference so it won't end up like me...it hurts to see past repeat itself and i have no intention on standing by as similar mistakes are made...

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13-15
Feb 8, 2010