LeadershipI think the universe is trying to teach me a lesson. At least it feels like a boulder has been put in front of me blocking me from making any forward progress. It appears that my relationships in all facets of my life are blowing up and life is becoming extremely unsatisfying.
I was thinking I need a change but it is hard to change everything. Tentacles reach deep into the earth in spots that are hard to retract. Changing "things" is not going to be the answer, I think is what is being taught, if I were to put on the Universe hat. It is me that needs to change.
You see, a lot of my issues seem to stem from communication, expectations. People expect me to respond in a certain way. It was easier before; when the stakes were low, when the situations were less risky; to be accomodating. To be able to come to an amicable understanding where both parties were happy. To take a chance.
When its late in the game, when decisions made can win or lose with no way to turn back, when it is not always in the best interest of those involved to spend a lot of time exploring paths and solutions; that is where my skills seem to break down. You see, I am a great collaborator; a wonderous purveyor of mirth and joyous good times, a staunch ally. but put me in the smoke-filled back room with lives on the line, with a future at stake, with adversaries or alliancs peering intently and ........ well that is where I am.
What I need to be is the stick not the puck. David Letterman not Paul Shaeffer. Batman not Robin. Sheldon not Kuthrapolly. Stewie not Brian.
A leader not a sidekick.
Please add more leader vs sidekick comparisons so it sinks in more for me.