Don't Know How To Get Past Being Insecure...I have always been self conscious my whole life. I went through foster care after my parents practically deserted me. So I was already on the mind set of "why am I not loved? What is wrong with me?" Foster Care only taught me that I was nothing but dirt and never worthy of things that other "normal" children were. Even basic necessities. I grew up with anxiety problems towards food. I still to this day at 21 can't go through a drive through by myself, cannot eat in public, cannot go to a grocery store by myself. As stupid as it seems I feel like being seen eating or buying food that other people look at me and think I do not deserve it. Its hard to get over so I push myself into doing the things that scare me little by little. Slowly making progress. I have always been self conscious about my size because I have always been very small since birth. I have been teased from it. Then getting to know my real family again can be hard because my sisters tend to put me down saying that I don't have the boobs one has or the butt another one has. Yes I know its because they are jealous of the features I do have and they are trying to make themselves feel better about their own insecurities but it still hurts. I still cannot go out in a bikini size 00 or not. I have never worn a skirt or a dress willingly. I was the kid that always preferred jackets and long sleeved shirts in the middle of summer no matter how hot it was because I was too afraid to take it off....Does anyone have any tips to get over some of these problems???
missangelachristine 18-21, F 1 Response 1 Apr 6, 2011