So Many Times

for years i have battled with reckless,destructive and addictive behaviour 
im not sure why i do it,but i will do something so stupid or fuckd up
and feel low about it+then do something to numb the pain
it can be a vicious cycle
its almost like there is something in my mind saying go on just do it to see what will happen
like drinking till i black out just to see how far i can push it
or if things are going well i get bored and do something even thought i know its wrong and will make my life a misery
i hope in time i can beat this+be less impulsive+think of the consequences

fingers crossed lol
geekoftheweek geekoftheweek
26-30, F
1 Response May 22, 2012