Separated An Extremely Lonely

I have been married for 14 years and have 2 kids.  Me and my husband decided it was no longer working, we had basically turned into friends with benefits.  We got together when he was 19 and I was pregnant shortly after and decided to get married.  Happened very fast.  We are still friends, probably more so then while we were together.  We have been separated for about 5 months now and he has not lived here. See him everyday still cause we work together.  I dont want him back as my husband, but cant figure out why I cant stop getting mad at him when he doesnt call me as fast as I would like him too, I get mad at him if he doesnt pay full attention to me, why do I do this when I dont want him back???? I need help with this or I will never get on with my own life, I barely even go out, dont care to date, most of the time I am just pissed off!!!!

jlm1128 jlm1128
36-40, F
2 Responses Sep 13, 2009

I too understand where you are at. I have been seperated from my wife for some time now and she has moved in with another man. I am to nice I guess the only reason I have not divorced her is because she need the insurance I have. But then she comes by to she the kids I just get so mad. I just stay in my room so I don;t have ot see her.

I understand. My husband and I have been seperated for a while now. Every now and then he will lead me to believe things could work out between us, but I'm not sure I want things to work out. Sometimes I think we would be better off making a clean break instead of lingering and never knowing where you stand.