Too many details to get into. All here are going through the same stuff. I read your stories and I can relate. A place I'm sue none of us thought we would be. I'm having troubles with sleep right now. Days, night doesn't make a difference. Seems so weird and empty. Think I'm going through a depression of some sort. Don't really know. I've never really had or felt loss in any way. Moving on seems so easy in my mind. I've been very lucky in life. I've never spent a day alone in my life. I've always had somebody who love me by my side since I was 16 years old. Now after three months of loneliness, I've had a lot of time to finally learn about myself. I don't really like what I am finding out. I've missed out on so much. I've lost, or never discovered who I am. Or what I'm even doing here. Sorry this is kind of all over the place. Guess I'm just up chucking my thoughts right now. Avoiding closing my eyes and going to that empty place called bed.