I Just Can't Do It!
Growing up I have always been interested about human sexuality. To the extreme to where I would read medical books about the sexual reproductive systems and sexuality. The therapy woman always found this to be abnormal. During my first 18 years of life, I learned about the dangers of sex and sexual crimes from the family because of what they went through. During middle school, the people around me started exploring sex. Of course I didn't because I was not ready for it. Once high school came around sex was like a normal everyday thing. I still did not feel ready for it. I didn't want to risk college and the future over a few hours of sex. But now that I'm eighteen years old, I have the option of having sex. With the pill of course. But it seems like every time I have sex (or any sexual activity) I feel that the future is in my hand. I get reminded of my mortician school and how it will all fail over sex/pregnancy. I can't ever enjoy even making out with out freaking out. :(