I am a girl,19 years old and until recently very sexually inexperienced. Ive never wanted to have sex with anybody. I had only kissed one boy and it was a peck. I had never made out or cuddled or did anything. Last week I went to a friends party and managed to drunkenly make out with two guys who had girlfriends. One guy actually had me wanting to kiss him, An urge Ive never had towards anyone before. The next time I saw him he acted so cold and i felt so ashamed. I dont know how love or desire works. Its sucks feeling like I was used. I cant lose my v card like that. It would break me apart. I feel really alone and ashamed.
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Mar 25, 2014