Sick Of Being Like This

I am sick of feeling like crap all the time, battling depression and anxiety. Nothing I do seems to be helping, eating right and exercising, I still feel like a bag of crap, I still feel totally exhausted, sleep or no sleep. I feel pain all over my body, my joints, my neck and shoulders, constant discomfort, I feel nausea when I eat and I have been losing weight which makes me feel even more weak, I try to eat as much as I can but I feel hungry all the time, sick and tired.

Sometimes I just want to go into a coma so I don't have to deal with this daily struggle. I always feel like I am in a dream like state, nothing feels present or real to me. I am trying so hard, but it doesn't leave my head. Maybe it's all in my head, maybe not, my doctors have tested my blood and stuff and everything always comes back normal. Being a hypochondriac doesn't help either. I always feel my heart beating in my chest, pain all over my body, weak in the knees, even when I eat right and work out. It seems the stronger I try to make myself, the weaker and more tired I get.

When I move out and start school again, I'm hoping things will get better, but if not, I'll probably seek out therapy even though I can't afford it, I just feel like whats the point anymore? I don't want to die but I don't feel like I am living.

I'm just so tired.
be2cute be2cute
22-25, F
4 Responses Jun 14, 2012

I feel your pain now and for the last 10years! Have tried one Dr after the other with no success! But left with all kinds of bills and the Dr saying "I don't know"

I know I know what it is pick me teacher pick me!
Have you ever detoxed your body? (liver, kidney's, colon, lungs)
You are filled with toxins (pesticides, artificial sweetners and preservatives and colors)
Exercising helps sweat out toxins but you must drink water (a gallon daily)
Eat as raw or clean as possible (google it)
be forewarned your body will go through withdrawals and it will fight you even worst to stop you from changing your diet. (Your body will fight you and even make you feel more sick and tired.)
But I tell you keep on, keeping on! It will pass.
find out more on body detoxification (google it)
Here was my Journey just this last year.
I hope you do it! and You're very welcome ;-) for the Thank You, you will give when you do the detox.
It works!!!!
B vitamins supplements (B1 B2 B6 B12), are awesome for energy (Amino Acids).

Hey, I know this might sound random, but have you ever tried yoga? Martial arts are also very helpful. I've had bouts like these in my life and doing thing like yoga and martial arts are really helpful. But you sound like a gentle person so maybe yoga would better suit you. You have find a class and teacher that you feel good in and then stick with it for at least 3 weeks. If you don't like it at first, maybe try a different class. There is also different typs of yoga. Do some reading and figure out what you would like. Also, if you belong to a gym, they might have yoga classes there.

Write me, I'm an advisor of sorts in this life.

Martial arts can suit gentle people just fine by the way. And there are many different kinds of martial arts. I did various kinds of martial arts so I could suggest one to you if you'd like.

I know exactly what you're feeling. You are not alone. I'm trying right along with you.