Will I Ever Find The Right One?! :(Im a 27 year old female and for most of my life i hated being single, i still do....because I still am! No matter how much I try to be positive about being single, the other part craves that feeling of being in love and being loved.
Ive never had a long-term relationship, the longest was 4 months..Iv had less than 10 'boyfriends'. Its not that i didnt want to be in a relationship, Iv always wanted a boyfriend but just never found the one who stuck around long enough. It has just been a sequence of disappointment and heartache and I'm not sure how much more my heart can take.
My friends say I'm stunning and have such a nice personality (Im beginning to doubt that now!) I dont have any trouble attracting men just the right one hasn't crossed my path yet. I consider myself to be genuine, down-to-earth, happy-go-lucky, loyal, affectionate, funny, independent and love life.The only thing missing is that special person....
The majority of my friends are either in a relationship or married with kids. I have always been the one who meets the guy, falls head over heels in love, then have my heart crushed months down the line. The prospect of meeting someone new naturally scares me because im wondering when they will walk out of my life again! I do meet guys and have no trouble with that, but it never lasts longer than I hope! I dont have one night stands/ flings/affairs and when I start to see someone new I dont give it up easily. When Im not in a relationship I abstain from enjoying sex but Im starting to crave it so much lately.
I live with three people, the landlord lives also lives her but her boyfriend stays over most nights and almost all day too. I find it awkward to be around them even though they are both very nice people and we get along. But seeing them cuddle up on the sofa laughing and joking really makes my heart ache for just that. It puts me in a bad mood. I usually end up leaving the room after bearing it for quite some time, then go to my room feeling so miserable, and I admit..feeling sorry for myself. Other times I just go to the gym or do something to try divert my mind from this empty feeling of being alone.
Being single is one of the main reasons why I get depressed.. this is usually sprung on by seeing couples or listening to friends talk about how great they're love lives are etc etc. I dont want to feel this miserable about not being in a relationship or feel sorry for myself but because I've spent most of my life single its hard not to. I would love to be able to say to my family that I have someone new in my life and be pretty certain that this is not just another 4 month thing!
Im tired of meeting guys in pubs, clubs mainly where alcohol is involved. Ive tried internet dating which hasn't gone down well so far..it isn't really my thing.
All i want is that someone special who knows how to respect me, make me laugh, who will stick by me and make my life that bit more enjoyable.
Is that so difficult ??!