It's Confusing.....

Whenever I do end up starting some kind of relationship with someone, it only lasts for a few weeks, a month or two at most. And I'm the one who usually ends up breaking it off.........

I hate being single, yet at the same time, I'm at fault for it. Even when a relationship is going well, and I really like the person..........I just end it. They haven't done anything wrong, but I just can't be with them. There's no spark. Not only that............but someone has already made off with my heart. Almost two years now............and they still haven't realized it.

Until the thief brings it back, I just can't be happy with anyone. Being single irritates me to no end, but I'll just have to rough it out for now. It's impossible for me to be happy, at least in this moment in time..........
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2 Responses Dec 10, 2011

I can sort of relate to your feelings. I was so hurt after my relationship broke, that I couldn't find the same happiness in another relationship and that ate me from the inside. I used to think that if he comes back, I'll welcome him into my life - infact thats what I wanted to happen. I think I silently waited for him for 2 years, then looked my situation as an outsider and realised that I need to come to peace with myself. I needed to grab a grip of my situation, told myself several times in the mirror, I don't need him in my life, and I need to love this other person who is actually here loving me. Its been 9 years now, and I think it was the best decision I made. My current boyfriend isn't perfect, but I love him and the fact is he is here for me and atleast he doesn't give me as many tears and stress as I had when my ex-left me. Hope this helps.

You're young. Changing boyfriends frequently is pretty common while a person is young. Sounds like you are still infatuated with that someone from two years ago. Maybe that's what's keeping you from being happy or content with someone now. You really need to move on, emotionally speaking. If that guy hasn't shown any real interest in you since then, it's not going to happen. The best you can do is to get involved in your own life and meet new people. Don't worry so much about pairing up with guys. Get your education, try out some new activities and hobbies; that's the perfect way to meet great people!

It doesn't matter if it's a male of female at all (it seems). I only wrote "guy/he/him" because that covers the majority of people, and, it's accepted journalistic style (got my degree in Journalism). It's not advocacy for any particular orientation.

You can't make someone love you. Either you want this person in your life on her terms (friendship, apparently) or not at all. That's your choice.