The Options

My story is probably not unlike many others. The short end of it is that I am tired of being single. I raised my daughter and launched her into her own life. And now it is just me. It has been years since I've been in a relationship, simply because I grew tired of the games. Grew tired of the lies, the betrayal, the nonsense. It became exhausting. And frankly I just did not have the energy to deal with a man.

Now I am finally in a place in my life where I am letting God know that I am ready. Asking Him to send me the right man. A believing man. An honest and loyal man. An employed man. (LOL)

All kidding aside ... I want what we all want. Someone who is down to earth. Someone who 'gets me'. Someone to share my good times and bad times with. To share my life with. To grow with. To laugh with. To BE with.

I have to be honest though, and say that there is a part of me that is reluctant to 'get back out there'. The truth of the matter is that unless you win the dating lottery - odds are you will go through many frogs before you happen upon your prince. If you ever find him.

I just don't know what is harder .... going through the motions of trying to find that needle in the haystack - or being single for the rest of my life.

Bottom line is that these are the options.

SpiritWithin SpiritWithin
41-45, F
3 Responses Jan 6, 2013

Sorry to hear of your situation, I was put in touch with a personal and relationship c onfident, whom I greatly benifited from ,maybe you will too :

Those are your options. I hope you do what makes you happy and good luck!

OH MY! We are exactly alike. I too have a grown child that I basically sacrificed the last 18 years of my life for and now she is grown and I am alone. I wouldn't have changed that for the world. But it is time to move on. I've been dating and it is miserable experience so far. I am so damn emotional that I even cried on New Year's Eve at the end of a date. I am crying now. It is so hard to share myself with someone new and trust them. I never was good at this part of relationships. My mind tells me things are going to end up bad and I am going to get hurt. I think because of all the hurt I have had in my life I'm very vulnerable. I truly believe God loves me and has a plan for me. I am so depressed right now I need to depend on Him even more then ever. I got on this site to see if I could help someone else. I think we could help each other out. I need friends. I need to love and be loved.

I know what you mean. It is so hard to trust - again. And once you have been off the market for so long - it is extremely difficult to jump back into the pool once again. Part of the problem is, the last time I was involved in the single scene my interests and mindset were different than they are today. Standards have also increased. As has necessity. I also think that my tolerance for bs has lessened dramatically.

I know God has a plan for me as well. I just pray that plan includes my soul mate! I jokingly say that I am waiting for 'him' to get divorced. (LOL)