If I Could Blame Myself I Would
What irks me to no end is more often than not my relationships don't work out from no real fault from either of us. Take my last girlfriend for example. We have no doubts that we love each other, but she's very family oriented & devout in her faith & her MOTHER refuses to accept our relationship& says it's 'unholy'. Her mother has gone so far as to MOVE AWAY, change churches, etc. to keep us apart. One could say my girlfriend could have stood up for us, but no one should have to chose between relationship & family/faith & it's unfair to put someone in that spot. Her mother may feel justified in doing so but I won't go there.
That seems to be a theme for me as either friends, family, money, health problems, work, distance or just bad timing seem to become obstacles. I'm trying to be sort of 'zen' about it in that these are things that are beyond my control & love is a journey, not a destination. Still, it would be wonderful to have someone as a stable comfort in my life. Someone to share everything with. An ally, a joy, & sex would be nice too y'know!