Expendable

And I'm so tired of it!  Granted not all of my friends make me feel this way, but at the same time a lot of them do.

I feel like they only want to talk to/sped time with me when it's convenient and others just make me feel like they tolerate me for one reason or another.

I also hate how even in a group of my closest friends I can still feel like the outsider. Maybe that is just my own doing though, maybe I alienate myself without really realizing I'm doing it.

I don't know... I just know that I hate feeling like I don't matter to the people who matter to me.

MirandaJMaddox MirandaJMaddox
26-30, F
5 Responses Jul 29, 2007

Yes, sadly some friends only appear when THEIR need arises. Literally hundreds of people have done this to my wife and me and this has caused us to take a rather cynical approach. Quite often now, we ask each other "what's in it for us?" This may sound like a poor attitude, but it is a self defense mechanism to protect ourselves from further abuse.<br />
We do still have special people that we consider true friends, but the rest now remain acquaintances with precautions and conditions. <br />
How many among us can say "I have more than 5 TRUE friends?" Not many I bet!

who? me?

i know how it feels. i'm in the same situation... i just have no luck with friends. when i finally find some, they treat me like your's do it to you. i have a friend, we were for 8 year the very best. she used to use me, and that was making me sick.. she told me how to live my life, and when i noticed it, it was pretty late... but now we don't talk anymore. and it's better so.

No, it's not.

I have friends too, that are only there when it is convient. It's frustrating and it's not a nice way to treat a friend.