THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY BY TEYJAI

I AM TIRED OF BEING CONSIDERED THE "ONE THAT GOT AWAY."  I AM TIRED OF MEN NOT REALIZING HOW SPECIAL I AM UNTIL IT IS TOO LITTLE TOO LATE.  WHY AM I USED AS A BLUEPRINT TO TEACH THEM HOW TO TREAT THE NEXT BEST THING.  WHEN SHE IS ONLY SECOND COMPARED TO ME.  WHY CAN'T HE REALIZE MY WORTH, SO THAT WE CAN REMAIN A TEAM.  BUT NO...I'M CALSSIFIED AS THE "ONE THAT GOT AWAY."  WHAT IS IT GOING TO TAKE FOR ME TO BE KEPT?  MUST I REALLY ALLOW A MAN TO WALK ALL OVER ME,  AND NOT MAKE HIM SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES OF LOOSING ME.  DO I REALLY HAVE TO BECOME SO UNDERSTANDING OF ALL HIS MISTAKES AND SHORT COMINGS...TO THE POINT THAT I TURN A BLIND EYE TO MY UNHAPPINESS AND ALL THAT IS NOT RIGHT?  IF THAT IS THE CASE, THEN I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY.  AND HE WILL ALWAYS GET HIS WAY.  IF AFTER THE PAIN, I STILL REMAIN.  HE LEARNED NOTHING OF WHAT HE HAS DONE WRONG.  SO..YOU MEAN TO TELL ME THAT I AM LABLED AS THE "ONE THAT GOT AWAY"  BECAUSE I DO NOT BITE MY TONGUE?  YET YOU CLAIMED THAT THAT WAS WHAT YOU ADMIRED MOST ABOUT ME.  AND YOU STILL LET ME GO.  DIDN'T FIGHT TO MAKE IT WORK.  TOO MUCH OF A COWARD TO SPEAK YOUR MIND.  AND THROUGH YOUR SILENCE I HAD TO DETERMINE  IF YOU WERE WORTH STAYING HERE.  YOU WAITED UNTIL THE MOMENT THAT I DECIDED TO GIVE UP ON YOU, TO RECLAIM MY LOVE.  BUT I AM TIRED NOW.  I AM NO LONGER WILLING TO MAKE IT WORK.  I HAVE NOW LABLED YOU AS A "JERK."  AND NOW...YOU'RE MISSING ME, AND WISHING THAT WE COULD BE MORE THAN WHAT WE ARE.  BUT I HAVE CLOSED MY HEART TO YOU.  AND I AM NOW IN SEARCH FOR SOMETHING THAT IS TRUE.  FOR A MAN WHO WILL HOLD ON AND NOT LET ME GET AWAY.

TeyJai TeyJai
26-30, F
Jan 7, 2007