I Was In The Midst Of Fat Jokes!

I went out to my own birthday party with my friends.  I was waiting for the rest of my friends to get out so that we could come in together.  As I was doing this, people began to point and laugh at me.  The group got larger and larger and then they started saying fat jokes in public!  It was so hurtful and so many people were involved too.  It was about 15 to start but the group got larger, and they were encouraging people to say more and more. It hurt so much that I went to my car and started yelling and screaming!  I couldn't take it any more!!!  

I yelled out **** you to these people, but it still hurt deep inside.  I love my body and love the fact that I lost so much weight, but I need to lose more.  (I am overweight due to a medical condition) After that, I cried for almost two hours and then I was finally able to go home.  This really did some damage to me.  

This is just one example of why I HATE people!!!!!

You can't even go out on your birthday without something bad happening to you. 

Tulick, I must apologize to you for all the stuff I said before about your "negative BS."  You are often misunderstood, and I am one of the people that misunderstood you.  I was trying to help you, but not in a great way.  For that I am sorry.  This includes what I said in private as well.  I am saying this in public so everyone can see it.  Negatively is draining, no matter who it is coming from!  The positive stuff can be just as draining if no one wants to listen to what you have to say, it does no good.  I have read some (not all) of your stories and I understand more, especially after the torment I have been through.  The more I live, the more I realize that more and more of what you say is TRUE.  (I am not quite convinced though, there is a part of me that still wants to try to make this better)

Wow, I can't believe I'm saying this!!!!  I need some help now.....

compulsion2 compulsion2
22-25, F
5 Responses Oct 24, 2009


you don;t need help your finally comming around to the reality i have known since i was 14 <br />
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hold on to the positive part of you keep it always there it is the catilist to change the world or your corner of it

were any of your friends around at that point? god only knows what me and my friends would have done to those people. a good tongue lashing at the very least.

I understand and thank you for that. It makes me feel a little better :)

i'm so sorry for what you wnet through. that was just wrong! i can't begin to imagine how i would have reacted in the same situation, but knowing my temper, it wouldn't have been nice!