Like Im In A Hole

A lot of people say how bad their job is, I ain't even GOT a job. I live on a council estate full of people that all look, speak dress and act the same, and who all have the same type of dog. I have a set routine and the highlight of my week is leaving my tiny flat and depressing area and go FOOD SHOPPING. Wow! Fun, fun, fun. I recently though played the Cavern in Liverpool with my band. But the band split up the next day and I didn't, COULDN'T even be happy playing THE CAVERN! NOTHING makes me happy. Women hate me and I have to be a different person in order to just get a conversation going. I am told I am very handsome, I am 6 foot, I am dark haired (going grey), nice, down to earth, honest and UNEMPLOYED. Women HATE handsome men, they go for chavs. They hate dole dossers, but choose chavs. Odd... But I just cannot get a woman or keep a woman, I push people away before they get a chance to hurt me. Getting a job after 8 years is impossible, the jobcentre think it is EASY. And people IN work think getting work is EASY, nobody understands and I cannot be happy. I try but I just moan about SOMETHING, everyone ****** me off. I cannot afford to move, I have no connections or help, I have no family, it is just ME and the world.