I'm sick of it. Why doesn't anyone realize I hurt just as much as them. Why is that because I'm not athletic or do a lot of physically strenuous activity that I can't be tired? Why is it that I'm big, I'm obviously a fat glutton? Why is it that everyone thinks they can come to me with their problems and wanting advice, but I can't do the same? Why is that because I'm the nerd, I don't mind being called a nerd? Because I do. I hate being made fun of just because I'm at the top of my class and I'm in speech and debate. I hate being called lazy because I don't do physically strenuous work. I hate being called fat. I know it. I know I don't exercise as much as I could, but I also have an eating disorder. I hate not being able to tell people anything. I hate being told I can't be tired. I carry a different stress than most people. I carry their stress. I carry my stress. I'm sick of doing it. I wish I could just let go and not feel anything. But I can't. Because I'm me. The girl everyone needs but no one seems to appreciate. I'm not saying no one appreciates me. I'm saying that sometimes I need help too, but I never get it. Because no one understands. And I'm sick of no one understanding. I'm sick of being me. Why can't I just stop being me?
tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY
18-21, F
4 Responses Sep 2, 2014

Seriously if you need someone I'll be here just message me if that's spelled right

I'll still listen ether wat


I'll listen too you are problems might be similar

I feel you, I'm sick of the same old crap too. No one wants to listen until something effects them. I can't even say I don't do that sometimes