I Am Sick of Life

i have had a pretty hard life in the past , my mum moved to a different country  to start a better life for us and  i was left with my abusive father, i have been depressed since i was 13years old , i havent seen any doctors about it because i dont want to go on record for having a mental illness.

has anyone else had a similar experience

vampireprincess vampireprincess
18-21, F
5 Responses Feb 18, 2009

vampirepricess, now im 21, im almost ok about what happened, but there are things in my mind that will be too hard to fix up, things like: trust in anyone, like lack, you must know what i mean, every day there is a fight inside me, i usually try to dont think about these things but you know, its hard... anyway, the point is, at the same moment im happy i can be sad, and happy again, and sad, you know what i mean? my mood changes too fast...<br />
but as my tattoo says: die tryin...<br />
what about u? how have you been? and how old?

menotbugged- why is your life torture??

thorming- i am sorry that you had it so hard, it's nice to hear from someone who is in a similar situation. sometimes i don't know who to talk to , who to trust not to judge me as if i brought it on myself. you know sometimes when you tell people what happened to you it's either they pity you or what happened to you becomes a label that you carry around. are you ok dealing with what happened to you? and how old are you now??

I was abused from 11 to 16 for a man who was like a father to me, i left my mom's house (it is impossible to live with her) when i was 18, i did not (actually i still dont have, my stepfather pay my bills now =/ ) have enough money to pay my bills for buy food, for nothing... anyway, i would spend many hours telling you about my life.<br />
if you may need to talk im here...

My life is torture