Written on December 22nd, 2012
I'm not or ever was man crazy, i never even had a boyfriend and that doesn't bother me one bit. During the 80s and 90s I was into watching those talk shows that had and still have cheating men, abusive men as the topic and was glad i wasn't going through that b.s. I'm not a virgin, i was raped at age 18, and at age 28 got infected with hpv. At age 30 I met a guy online who was a total ego maniac, self loving narcissist a$$hole who treated me and the past women he had as his own personal sp*rm banks. Fortunately we never met in person, unfortunately i did fall in love with him that lasted 4 years Too long (2002-2006) and i was (gag) his **** buddy, only because I was blindly in love, (GAG) otherwise I would of just been normal casual e-pals. He was your typical long haired bad boy bass guitarist and me liking heavy metal, and long haired guys, I was blinded, which allowed him to play me like i was his bass guitar. Until in late 2005 i started to get tired of his "I'm a Rockstar God" ego trip, I finally stopped hearing from him in 2006-Finally! I guess he figured it out that I wasn't into him anymore. He wasn't attractive and he was fat, not obese fat, just flabby fat. I ain't no prize winner either, but I don't have an ego about myself, and he wasn't rich or close to it. the garage to bar bands he was in never released any albums, he was just a bass pla
yer for hire. Nope, I don't and never need a man to be happy, you make your own happiness. I'm single,celibate and prefer it that way. I don't even have a sex drive anymore anyways, so it doesn't make a d*mn bit of difference.