Keep being single!

Ive got my issues, I don't hide that from people I meet (I probably should, seeings as I'm pretty fked up), what you see is what you get... An emotionally damaged little boy trapped in a mans body...
I feel it doesn't matter if I'm single or not, that as long as I'm happy that's all that matters
Lol I know some of you might read my stories, and proceed to tell me "you do care though, see you wrote this story about a girl you knew" or "you made this comment"
So yes sometimes I'm lonely, but who isn't? Sometimes the loneliest place seems to be in a crowd of strangers... But to me it all boils down to being there for yourself... And that's almost impossible to do in a relationship, because no matter who it is they will change you... Maybe not on purpose, but it happens and it's likely neither of the people's fault... As Forest Gump would say "**** happens"
We always say its never going to happen to me... But it will, just you wait and see... I'm no exception, I always took pride in the fact that I didn't seem to be affected by having crushes or love interested... But then one day I met someone that threw all that out the window...
Am I bitter, idk maybe? ...Hurt? definitely... Would I take her back? In a heartbeat... But it doesnt matter, I read all of these stories about people wishing to have their first boyfriend/girlfriend, and all I want to tell them is WAIT, yes I'll gaurente you will have some extremely wonderful times with that other person, but when/if it ends (and the odds are surly not in you favor unfortunately) the feeling of loss itself is more painful than you can possibly anticipate... I know the probability of anyone listening to this is probably nil though, since I didn't even listen too it...
I still remember the day I desired to chance it... I came home and told my dad "I met this really cool girl today" all he told me was "be careful you don't know what your getting yourself into" and I ignored it... She had changed me already... Just after seeing her for 5 minutes...

So follow it or don't follow it, take your chances.... Just don't say someone didn't warn you...
bommer537 bommer537
18-21, M
May 25, 2012