Single, But Ok With It

I'm single, have been for the past 2 years, but as time goes by I've found that I enjoy all the things that I can do without worrying about another person. I travel, work three jobs, go to school, sleep till 3pm on my days off (rare though they are). With a partner you are always doing something for them and you have to think about them before you make any decisions - Not me.

Naturally, I want to be in a relationship, but my life views don't exactly attract men in crowds. I want a monogomous relationship, but I don't believe in marriage and I don't want kids - actually shouldn't have kids because of my fragile health. I'm pretty chronically ill, though I go out of my way to hide that fact, but that means I never know how I will feel when I wake up in the morning, and not only tends to bother people, but I can't bring myself to force that onto anyone but myself...Seems selfish. I could cry and beat my chest and beg God (who I really don't believe in) for answers, but what's the point? Life is short and I want to enjoy the time I have, even if that means being alone. I hope that someday I'll be accepted simply for who I am, but in the meantime I'm living my life.  

wanderwoman wanderwoman
22-25, F
Jun 18, 2008