Can't Bear The Thought

There was a time when I dreamed about having a relationship. I wanted to find someone special and be special for someone else. I don't know why or when that changed, but I simply can't bear the thought of having someone important. I hate the idea of someone interfering with my life. I'm afraid of the intimacy.

I have no love in me to give to anyone else. I don't even have enough for myself.

I sometimes fear I will never find that love or even the need to love. I don't want to die without having had a life partner. Or children.

But there's still time.
Crom Crom
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 28, 2012

You are so right when you ended it with there's still time. I've also felt those feelings all the ones you wrote. In the end I guess I still have hope that we will all find someone. I wish you a happy future. Try and think positive, cause i believe positive things can happen. ^_^