For the First Time In Four Years...

I'm single! It's a crazy, new and scary feeling. I think what I fear most about being single is that I will grow more comfortable on my own terms than I would be in a relationship. I feel like I'll get set in my ways, my standards will go through the roof, and I will end up lonely.
    It was strange. I never thought I would be able to sleep by myself ever again. I couldn't sleep for a long time after the last ex stopped sleeping over. Now, the sounds don't scare me (I blame it on the cats) I've fixed the lights outside so there is no shadow, and I have a TV that I can turn on if it gets to be too quiet.
    I never thought I would meet new people. Now that I am an adult in the dating world (I left it as a teen) I now realize how dating sites came about. It brings me back to that damn American mentality about how if we don't keep ourselves so busy we want to cry then we'll fall over and die. Well, not getting out and doing things just takes away any chance at meeting someone normal that likes doing the same thing.
    So I've answered personal ads, and others have answered me. I've flirted at school. I've talked to people on the phone and not called them back. I've gotten drunk and not worried.
    I know I don't want to be single forever, and I don't want to end up single for the same reasons I did the first time. Hopefully I can learn from my mistakes and the ones I make in the future will be new and different! (:S)
    Either way, it's nice to know I'm in good company, friends :)
KarmaFred KarmaFred
18-21, F
1 Response May 18, 2007

I like this story. Good luck meeting someone new.