Am I Actually Able To Love ?

So, I'm 17, I'll be turning 18 pretty soon actually and I've always been single, I had a few crushes and I got rejected every time. Anyway, I started thinking about love when I was 12 I think and ever since I thought I really had to find a boyfriend and everything would be better like this. I remember I used to "fall in love" all the time, I saw a guy I liked, I got obsessed with him for a few days then I saw another guy. Well today, I don't really know anymore, I realize everything I felt until yet was just a quick attraction. And now I have the feeling I could never, and I mean it in the impossible way, fall in love. I see that I can live without everything and everybody. I mean, sure, people are fun, I like them, I like my friends, it wouldn't be cool if they died, but I can always find other friends. Well, I don't know, I don't know anything about live anyway. Maybe I'm just a freaked out teen.
DinosaurJunior DinosaurJunior
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 6, 2013

Hey there. I'm actually pretty much in the same situation as you are. I'm 18 and I'll be 19 later on this month. I have also gone my entire life without a boyfriend and have also developed the same obsessions and quick crushes as you described. In my case, it seemed that I wouldn't fall for a guy until I found out that he had a girlfriend or liked someone else. I've never really been approached by guys, and the ones that did make an approach were the wrong ones, if you know what I mean. It’s just natural to not really want something that much until you've realized that you can’t have it. I'm still waiting for my special someone, and I'm more than sure that you will find yours too. Having to wait this long only means that there is a special someone in store, just for you! Good luck, and remember to keep holding on!! :)