Honesty.Well Let's start out agreeing that honesty is the best policy.
So with that being said I am single. But It goes so much more than just single. My title should be "Alone"
Because even when you are single you are still usually surrounded by loved ones whether it be by friends or family.
Not saying I don't have family because I do. I'm just saying I'm very alone. I lead a very simple life, no drama, no worries. And with that comes great sadness paired with loneliness.
I'm alone nearly twenty four hours a day seven days a week.
Being a girl who has always been in a relationship at all times in her life this is new to me, new unfamiliar and growing older each day that passes.
I can't seem to find anyone who relatively wants me. Sure I have friends who I text but due to my "once were" living arrangements all of those people are across the country.
I start to believe that I'm undesirable or unfriendly but I'm not. I'm warm, inviting, bubbly very open minded and accepting of most things and people. I just would like to find someone who I can spend forever with. Who can hold me on his lap his arms around me just happy to have me. I want someone who will look into my big green eyes and I can tell I belong, I'm taken , I'm theirs....
I want to be somebodys everything. I've always been the one in every relationship that done the most , that fell so hard, who loved with all she had and... getting less than substantial in return. I'm growing tired of this trend. I want someone who wants me even more badly then I want them.
I want pure, blind, blissful love.
Is this impossible?