I Am Single

It'S Gettin Better ( Kinda)

By: Squeekarose

Written on January 30th, 2013

I have been no contact with my ex for almost 2 weeks and its getting a little easier and I think of him from time to time when something reminds me of him. However, before I would just cry for no reason and the pain that wasn't exactly physical but took my breath away hasn't happened in a little bit thank goodness. But I still look out the window when I'm in a car ( I do a lot of traveling) and I'm staring outside and I start having these flashbacks of times when things were happy or nice and when he seemed just as happy as me. Were all those times faked?? Could he be that good at it, that good at just pretending to care as much as me? Ill know know all the answers and I think I hate that the most but then I think what if I knew the answers to all the questions? I'm certain I wouldn't like the answers either. I'm not happy unless I've got even myself so confused bout what it is I want lol! All I know is that it's a little bit better today then it was yesterday so I'm hoping tomorrow is a little bit better then today!!

By: Squeekarose

Age: 31-35 , Female

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ambroseguy80

coming in on the tail end of things here. Sorry you have to deal with someone who doesn't know what they want in their woman. I should be that lucky to have the choice! LOL.
Hang in there, hon. Hopefully something better comes your way! :-)

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- Squeekarose
  It's kinda weird actually cause once I knew he had already slept with someone else I had this instant feeling come over me of omg I don't care what he wants anymore! I mean obviously I stil care but man I mean I really did a 180 cause I do mad and angry better then I do sad and lonely lol, I wish I could say he was always a jerk and I hated everything about him but that would be a lie and if he was all those bad things then I wouldn't be so upset by the break up but that's the problem is that he was nice and he was a guy I put up on a pedal stool cause honestly he was so easy to talk to and I thought he could never lie cause he had been hurt before cause he had told me so... But anyhow long story a lil shorter I obviously cared for him more then he did about me an my ego took a huge hit and now I'm pickin up the pieces and hopefully moving on and I'm tryin to lead a better life cause I heard the best revenge is to live better then before lol
  
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- ambroseguy80
  Lol! You've got a great attitude, 'spunky' ;-)
  
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