Even though I had to break off from the relationship because it was a bad one and yes its better to be single and alone than alone in a relationship.
Still being single sucks the older you get. When you are young and in high school or college, being single is actually the ideal to go out and date as many people as you want and flirt and just have fun.
But when you are an adult there is no time to meet anyone and the few people you do meet all are not great and you just cant help but feel the clock ticking away at you while you ask yourself if you will always be alone and when you will meet the right person for you?
It also doesn't help when all your friends are attached and you feel like you are the only person in your world who is alone. And since all your friends are attached, they have no time for you and can not relate to you so you feel even more alone than ever.
Plus, dating sucks. It takes such effort and involves so many games, its like a job interview that never ends and nobody really ever seems to win at. So much easier if the right person just popped into my life (I keep hoping that will happen...)
Although there are aspects to being single that are fun: you get to be selfish and do whatever you want.
But then there is always the closeness of a loving relationship that just cant be beat no matter what.
I am just really tired of being single...